To be completely honest, I’ve always found chubbier girls so much more gorgeous than skinnier girls. I don’t mean in the sexual way - (I am 100% straight because I would hate to deal with the emotions of a girl, girls are fucking confusing and can’t be dealt with) - I just mean in the appealing way. Like, I just think girls that have a little bit of meat on their bones and curves to show off so much more beautiful than the girls with bones sticking out all over the place.

I never used to think like this.

I used to be so proud that you could see my rib cage if my shirt was even slightly see through. I used to be proud when I denied a meal, or stood on the scale to see a few more kilos drop down. I used to be so fucking proud of myself, all the time, for the way I was. 

And now, I’ve never been more embarrassed. I envy the girls who can look so lovely and be proud of the weight they’re at, no matter what harsh, uncalled for comments they get. I’d give so much to be capable of that kind of courage.